A life on the fast lane, that’s how I see my being. One thing can lead to another and another can lead to a whole new chapter. Learning how life works isn’t easy, but it’s twice as hard if we are being influenced by different facts, theories, assumptions and the “truth”.
Learning Philosophy for the summer excites me so much because I have heard cool things about it, but as we go through the day and inculcate different ideas and illusions, Philo has got me thinking about a LOT of stuff. “Do I have to believe my professor?” “Should I believe him?” “Is he even telling us the truth?” “Is this the real deal in the international arena?” Those are just some of the questions that made me stop and doubt about several things.
It is kind of weird if I were to think if I am real or not, if I am just a figment of one’s imagination and, worst, do I even exist, not just socially, but in reality. I don’t usually give myself a thorny problem about these kind of things, but philosophers have the knack to stir people’s minds and beliefs. I don’t want to bother myself by doubting too much of what I used to believe in especially when it comes to my faith, then again I still seek for the truth. Why so? Well, unlike animals they have the so called instinct that is genetically passed unto their offspring in which that “instinct” serves as a proof that only animals have an accurate and precise gut feeling than human beings.
I have learned that even though we humans are the “highest” form of animals here on earth, or so as they say, we are not gifted by the truth. Whether or not we believe that we have evolved from a small cell or have been created by God we still don’t have the truth in our hands.
As for me, I believe that God is the ultimate creator. He is there. I may not have the science to prove that He exists, but I know that He does exist. He is perfect and infinite. I know that He is awesome. I just know, so what? I have something certain to believe in even if I cannot touch it. His power, I can definitely feel that is why I do not question Him. I am not smart, I know things but I am not that clever. I am thankful for being like this because if I was really intelligent I might have been a philosopher. I will be that kind of philosopher who would argue about everything; to change the rational or irrational, the right or wrong, the good or bad, the heaven and hell and the existence of man and God. Constantly changing what is there up to the point of no end. The nerve of intelligent people! They kept on making things up that would sum up to something that is either right/wrong or good/bad.
“It is not the mind/consciousness of man that determines his being; on the contrary it is his social existence that determines his mind.” — His point is taken, to whoever said that line. According to my own understanding of the said passage, it is in the opinion of the person that ascertains his decisions/beliefs. For example, I am an atheist talking to a catholic about the Lord. Whatever that I will be saying against Him will immediately give that person a rebuff or a thumbs down to me.
A talk about free-will is just so annoying. As a kid, I do not have all the will in the world but one thing is for sure, the will of the Lord is what I am most confident of. His will would lead me to Him.
A summer would not give me a full understanding of Philosophy but it has got me questioning about a lot of things. Like the ever-so-popular “bad sign”; can science prove that raising your middle finger means your cursing? Can a catholic who has offered his/her whole life to God fully understand and not question the beliefs of an atheist? Are humans really the highest or the most intellectual animals here on earth? Does truth exist? Are people just illusions made by others to satisfy themselves? Do we really need morals or ethics in life to be right?
Those are the hesitations that I just want to give a shut eye and leave it as that. I have so much to learn, but so little time. As for now, my ideas and what I believe in is true and will remain as is. No words can tamper my faith or my morality. My ideas will remain but will always be receptive and nurturing. Against or not about my conviction, I will still accept it as true. Change is constant; I will leave it like that. Wherever or whoever I am now must be sustained rather than weakened.
The opportunity to learn and hear from my professor has given me a full load of meaning in life. I have now the aim to answer my own uttered demands and the will to understand the variations in the world of different studies, principles, deceptions and deviations. It is on us if we are to agree or disagree. 
